Once upon a time there were two kingdoms at war. One was great, yet smaller than its neighbor. The other one was very great and magnificent, rich and pleasing. Yet it was dark: the light was dark, the grass dark, the trees dark, the sky dark, even the people dark. Yet in this kingdom was a princess. She alone was light, and so she was made to wear dark clothes and stay outside in the strange dark light in order that she too might be dark.
One day she walked alone in her garden. She remembered how brilliant it had been and full of flowers and birds; but with the years it had become overgrown and abandoned. Yet as she walked through the deserted place, she saw eyes through the lattice: someone was watching her. She fled inside. But the next day, the someone was there again. Again she left hurriedly. On the third day, she tried to ignore his presence. But she was unable to, so she called and asked what he did there. He answered not. She looked at him curiously, “None may enter but the gardener who has long been dead.”
He smiled.
She blushed and hesitated. Should she let him in? The flowers needed tending, but she knew he wanted entrance to more than her garden- he wanted entrance to her heart.
She moved closer to the lattice. “If I let you in, how do I know you will not force yourself on me, or steal me away?”
He just smiled, calmly and openly. Never was there a more beautiful man than this man! Words fall short, and yet some attempt must be made. His hair was golden like rays of the sun, his eyes a brilliant brown like polished wood, his skin soft and white like the purest wool, his face proportioned like a perfect marble statue, his body strong like a lion and yet gentle as a lamb.
She looked into his eyes and loved him. It did not matter what happened: he was goodness. And if he was goodness, then nothing could happen. She undid the lock. He entered. He reached out his hand and touched her heart.
It is impossible to describe the transformation of a soul! But what happened was greater than that which occurred in the garden: the sand swirled around and was carried off by winds, the weeds shriveled and receded into the ground, the long dry fountain sprang to life again, the absent flowers returned, the dead spice trees again were green and fragrant. Birds sang, the doe walked the path, the horse and the lion played together.
That night he slept in the garden. The princess lay awake all night on her satin couch- distracted by the memory of his touch.
Each day she spent in the garden with the silent man, but it was as if he spoke to her. He had an eloquence of movement and silence: by the gentle touch of her hand or cheek, by the silent gaze or smile, she understood that he loved her, wanted her to follow him, that he intended her to be his beloved.
Then one night she awoke. From the dread in her heart she knew he was gone. She ran through the garden, but he was not there. She ran through the palace, but he was not there. She ran through the streets, but he was not there. She ran to the guard at the gate. “Has my beloved been here?”
He looked at her with hostile eyes. “No one has been this way. Go back to your place.”
“No, no! He must have. There is no other way in or out. And he is gone! What shall I do?”
“What care I? Be off with you!” And he pushed her down and kicked her where she lay.
Crying she fled back to her garden. There she sat down and wept. “O what shall I do? He has gone and left me. I thought he loved me. What did I do? What did I not do? O why, why? Where has he gone?” But there was no answer except the throbbing of her own heart: she must seek him!
As the dark sun was rising over the dark, barren valley, the princess was already far advanced in her search. Everywhere she asked for her beloved, but no one had seen him. At last she fled into the mountainous wilderness. She asked the doe and the dove, but they bounded away. After years of searching she came upon the other great kingdom- the one her dark people had been warring with. She entered the main city. “Have you seen my beloved?”
The people looked at her strangely and walked away without answering. Looking down at her skin, she knew she was darker than they were. She had become black.
Then guards arrested her. Protesting her innocence, she was dragged before a judge. And there was her beloved.
Judge: “You are guilty.”
Princess: “But I have done nothing! You have not heard my attestation. Ask the man at your side.”
Judge: “Everyone has done evil by fact of being human. Take her away to death.”
Princess: “Please, one request! He is my love. Let him kiss me, if he loves me. Let him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth.”
The quiet stranger came towards her. He touched her cheek and smiled, but his eyes were full of pain.
Judge, with tenderness: “If you do, Prince, you shall take her place.”
The beautiful man bent forward and kissed her.
It was a moment of pure bliss- when time and pain and worry cease. All there was, was him and all the words he had never said entering her mind and becoming her nourishment. It was his silence that gave her strength.
But, when the kiss stopped, it was he who wore the chains and she was free.
Princess: “No! He is innocent. I am the guilty one. As a man, I am responsible for evil. But he… he is more; he is just. You cannot condemn him.”
Judge, with tears in his eyes: “He condemned himself for you.”
Tears blinding her, the girl ran into the dessert. The sun scorched her, the sands burned her, the dry air tormented her. The beloved was gone. How could she live? It was impossible.
However, live she did. In the heart of the desert for years she dwelt and prayed for the beloved to come. Many came to ask her questions, some genuinely, some from curiosity.
Princess: “Yes, I am blackened, scorched by the sun. Yet I am lovely because he loves me. Do not hide from him; seek him in the garden.”
One day a doe pranced around her crude dwelling. It would not stop till she tried to catch it. She followed its bounds. Soon she was in a lush forest. “Do you know where my beloved has gone? Can you show me by your secret paths which way he went?”
And the deer bounded on, and the dove cooed softly in the cleft of the rock. A smell of sweetness grew and became strong: the sweetness of wine, the odor of perfume, the scent of oil. They grew stronger, till the princess felt intoxicated by the smell of remembrance, the smell of him which had been so pungent at his kiss. “O love, you wound me! With one hair of your head you make me bleed. Where are you, o my love? Why do you hide from me in the plenty of your land? Show me your courses and the paths you run. Come, my love, and heal the wound in my heart; come inebriate me with the sweetness of your breath!”
All she heard was the cooing dove and whispering wind. But she knew his response: follow me into the secret depths, follow and learn the love I have. And she followed his silent call.
And I am sure, wherever he has led her, the beloved silent man of beauty has spoken finally the word of silence into her heart. Thus, they communicate the intricate simplicities of love with the golden language of wordless peace.
The End